This post is going to be a slew of randomness thrown together. No cute tips, or helpful advice, or book suggestions… just me spewing word vomit onto the screen, so to speak.

It’s the first week of NaNoWriMo, what do you expect?

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On NaNoWriMo

Yep, it’s the first week of NaNoWriMo. I’m the ML for our region for the second year, which means I’m in charge of everything and getting people organized. And promotions. And getting fun things together for everyone. And moderating our forum. And staying on top of my own word count as an example for others to follow.

Yeah, I definitely crashed and burned yesterday. Those of your who also struggle with severe stress & anxiety will understand—there are some day when you just can’t. I spent most of yesterday lying on the couch, hating myself and the world. This isn’t something I’ve talked about on the blog before (and I don’t know if I’ll ever mention it like this again), but I know there are some of you out there who struggle with the same thing, and please know that you’re not alone.

Today is much better, though I’m not back to normal yet. However, I switched projects and got caught up by writing the daily count for yesterday, which means I’m back on track and will be able to get today’s word count in at tonight’s write-in. I’m feeling much more confident now that I switched projects, even though I’d spent the last two months planning to work on a different project.

But I think that was maybe the problem… I planned to work on something else, but I didn’t actually have time to plan the project itself, I was far too busy with other things like work and ML duties. I felt like I was doing so much for other people, that I didn’t have any time to do the things I needed to for myself. I still feel that way a little bit… but this other project is simpler, mostly planned (I have a general outline, and the story is very linear), and I know I can finish it within the month. Plus, an agent recently posted that she’s looking for books in this same vein, so I may use that (querying her) as an end goal to push me through, even though writing is the last thing I want to do right now. Yeah, perfect timing for my mental health to go wonky, I know.

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On Blogging

This month, my posts will be sporadic at best, and complete and utter ramblings at worst. In order to not end the month as a quivering pile of jelly, I’m not going to commit to any regular posting schedule, including weekly memes and/or a previously mentioned new series of writing tips (I think I must have been insane when I said I wanted to start that this week).

So if you don’t hear much from me, that’s why.

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On 100 Followers

I’m almost there! And yes, I will be running a contest of sorts once I get there. I even have a few of the prizes already lined up, cute little things that I’ve found here and there… and of course, there will be a book or two up for offer. That’s just the way of things. So stay tuned for that!

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On the Crusader Challenge

I’m so sorry, guys… I’ve really dropped the ball on you recently. Please see the above section on NaNo to know why I didn’t get around to joining the second challenge last week. Also, please know that I’m reading your blogs and commenting as much as I have time for. It’s not that I don’t love you, promise.

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On Book Reviews

Oh, good grief. I have so many of these backed up that I don’t even know where to start. I’m going to try and get to some of these this month… though I’ll warn you that I’ve read some pretty crappy review books lately, so I’m not exactly motivated to write some of them. Oh well. I’ve committed, so that’s that.

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And now I’m going to leave this and get back to writing… I’m going to try and get to as many blogs as I can in the next 30 minutes and comment, and then I have to move on to other commitments… yeah, this post was entirely too self-indulgent, and I don’t plan to do it again anytime soon. But I didn’t have anything unique or funny or wise to say today, so… that’s that.

See you around, Wrimos and non-Wrimoing writerly types!

Here’s to a successful November, whatever you’re doing.